Category Archives: self loathing

Middle-aged & Angry: Things I’d say on social media if I was an a**hole.

I wouldn’t actually say these things as I’m not THAT MUCH of an asshole and because I only just think them. I’m merely a middle-aged, unemployed professional with a hell of a lot of repressed anger that wants to avoid … Continue reading

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The Spy That Loved Thee: Celebrating The Average Femme

 Curious? Guilty. I had to see who she was –  ‘the (ex) wife.’ I dug around/cyber-snooped. I found a photo. A daughter, a husband and a wife… She wasn’t what I expected. She looked sour, bored. Uninspired. He was in … Continue reading

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Meltdowns & The Return of Cristianity

Last December, matters had come to a particular blistering head. My toxic emotional-puss finally surfaced via a four-hour session of uncontrollable sobbing. Curled up in the fetal position and mummified in my duvet, the epiphany which should have been no … Continue reading

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Cakes vs. Scones: The Identity Crisis

During the last few months while my mojo has been curled-up into the fetal position and I have attempted (on some level) to deal with a cornucopia of emotional shit to which I am in not willing to succumb (denial hard at work) … Continue reading

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A lost Mojo, Neurotic Salad and the gross misuse of ‘Mactac’

I might be this guy… Peter Whitman (Adrien Brody) with a simmering melancholy during his journey in Darjeeling Limited –  Used his dead father’s razor, and wore his prescription glasses  rendering him almost legally blind. Although I was tempted, as I had 3 … Continue reading

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We used to be friends. No wait, you just dicked me around to validate your ginormous ego.

A long time ago, we used to be friends But I haven’t thought of you lately at all If ever again, a greeting I send to you, Short and sweet to the soul I intend… My former Italian Holy Grail … Continue reading

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Keep calm and suck it up…

I am very thankful to everyone for all the lovely condolences, kind words and concern I received since last Tuesday and regarding the news contained in my last post. The pending question seems to be how I am holding up these days… Besides lounging in bed … Continue reading

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